Dreams. Regardless of how bad they may be, either way it just shows how boring life is in comparison. You cannot be bored within dreams, ever.

WTF, I can't wait until the day that I will be able to move out and support myself. I'll just cut them out of my life so I'll never have to see them again, ever.

EDIT: Make it end... AGhh...

Tear the skin, rip the flesh, let the blood flow like a river emptying itself into the sea. The cycle begins once more.

EDIT: Ehh, I don't like wearing suits. They make me look so old that it feels uncomfortable just thinking of how old I look with it on.

This feeling of excess, as if alot of things done in my life is utterly expendible; it brings a state of anxiety to my mind. There are many things that I waste my time on and yet neglect to do what is essential. I need to get motivated, if I don't then I suppose that's it for me. All or nothing is the plan, and I surely dislike like the idea of nothing.

Anyways, the VSB is BS! They make us go to school when it's bloody cold and snowing so much. Atleast school was cancelled half way through, that made me happy - more sleep for me! Came home sat infront of computer, went to bed and crashed. Woke up 4 hours later, refreshed and slightly tired. Painted a bit... now what? Hopefully another snow day tomorrow. I can only pray.

Anxiety, anxiety, anxiety... Sometimes I can just sit here and think. Yeah, thinking can make a person go insane, but it's what I do and I don't care either. I still regret not having a philosophy class at school... now there's something I'd try in.

Quarter to five in the morning and I can't sleep yet! Hate is a powerful source of inspiration, more than love, more than sorrow, more than laughter. If you're and artist or musician... Find something to bring that incinerating emotion of hate, and guide it towards your talent. Even if it is enough to destroy you, isn't it worth it? Thousands of famous artists have strived to acheive beauty with their life on the line, dying slowly, losing all sense of sanity. It's worth it, and if they had a second chance don't you think they would do it again?

Bleh, I wish I would get comments, but I barely do... I'm not interesting enough.

Happy New Year to everyone who is able to read this and more. Don't forget to stick true to your resolutions or else you're just a liar and deserve to be lied to by everyone else if you can't even be honest with yourself. We all get lazy once in a bit, so I suppose it's okay.

Last night was okay, I didn't drink that much. Yet, I wish I had more. I was feeling a bit not well when I just got to Carny's so I didn't drink too much. I wish I drank more last night. The night after drinking I always have a craving for more of that alcohal taste. Stayed over at Carny's with thems, got 4 hours of sleep but I feel more refreshed than anytime all week. Excellent, now onwards to a boring day of fun filled excitement. Blah, what will I do!? Most likely stay home, unless anyone has plans?

Good luck for this year to all. Love ya.