December 2, 2008

• I haven't been posting anything lately simply because I haven't been feeling anything. I do log in daily, however it simply does not feel right for me to submit an entry without any passion or emotion. A single giblet of pain, anger, happiness, inspiration; all I need is one little thing to become driven. Pulling boring stupid ideas out of your head and posting them on Xanga is somewhat equivalent to heading over to the washroom and taking an imaginary shit. It does not satisfy the soul. One of the most rewarding things about Xanga is to become aggravated in real life, being driven to type a meaningful agreement/disagreement or a simple synopsis of the situations one may occur, then to browse upon it in 1 or 2 years into the future.

  Truely, I have no idea what I feel. Sometimes it's apparent that I'm feeling nothing at all, I think constantly and have many various thoughts, but feeling wise. When I am alone, there is nothing but static. In the past there was so much anger, so much pain, but as of late there's nothing. Nothing. Nothing.

  I like being angry, it fuels my training and pushes me past my limit in the gym. Without it, it's just work.

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