wheat grass, rose hip, echinacea, gold seal... i wonder how much of an immunity to such natural remedies the human race as a whole has built up over the years. in time our super bugs will be able to feed off of such things. Yay.

also, to the dumbass who decided to loiter while leaving all their bags of shit groceries idle at the end of the cashier WTF does that!? you pissed like 10000 people off today by confusing your bags with others. go put one of your plastic bags on your head and duct tape it all the way around. yes, i know due to my excessive amount of description anyone would immediately recognize such persons.

I'm on the brink of being ill. I've been pretty healthy all month and suddenly this morning at work I notice that there's some weird crap in my lungs when I cough. I feel so-so, right now, but I'm not sure how long it'll be until I either get better or worse. At work, a lot of weird shit floats around in the air such as random dust and chemicals. I'm going to eat 10 dumplings, 10 fishballs, a pack of noodles, and go nap for a couple hours. Echinacea, yay... I hate being sick and for some reason my body wants to work out even more even though there's simply no energy left.

A lot of the times I feel as if I've wasted much of my life. From age 19 to early twenties is supposed to be the physical prime, while age 23 is supposed to be the prime mentally. I have no real ambitions, no hobbies or skills. After mid-twenties, could it be really downhill? By that age a person had all the chances in the world to complete whatever goals. (ignoring financial obstacles.) I gotta push harder. When I die I want to feel like I did something with my life, enough to die laughing regardless of the situation.

So, I was walking Angela home yesternight and some hobo transient said he needed $12 more to stay at the nearest hostel and he had only $27 on him. Then I told him it only costs $18 to stay there. (I remembered the sign) HAH! Not sure if he was telling the truth, but he said he needed $10 more for key security deposit. He offered his Tommy Hilfiger Jacket or his "brand new ipod." (Which was atleast one week old because I saw him tell the same thing to some other lady last week. Plus it looked like first generation nano, which isn't sold anymore.) I gave him a quarter and a dime, even though I had more. I love to see the look on people's faces when they beg with their generic 10 minute speech of why people should give them free money and then I give them a few cents.

Now that really made me wonder, how many people that he begged actually demanded the ipod? He offered it, so it's in fair game. Although I didn't bother getting into an argument for a 35 cent ipod.

My last response to gavin's recent post...

Throughout history religion has been used as a tool to control armies
and assimilate colonies. It makes one really question if the leaders of
such religions truly believe in their own faith at all or simply use it
as their own power. I'm not stating that all religions have been used
as a tool.

In the past there have been holy crusades, witch hunts, etc.
In this modern day religions and cults still cause much war, mass murders, and suicides.

Some
people may believe that religion is beneficial for the mind. Perhaps
that is because it has given people the placebo affect of "mind over
matter." Great for them.

How many times has religion hindered our advancement in science and technology?

In
the past, great thinkers have been executed. Perhaps the church was
scared? It was so easy to rule over ignorant commoners, even more so if
they're scared.
To this day people still continue to preach and
shove their religion down other people's throats and casting away such
proven things such as evolution.

If there is such thing as a
true religion, I don't believe that any individuals should be given the
divine right to choose and preach about god or gods or even write a
book about it.

Thus, my reasoning for believing that much of religion is BS is completely reasonable.

In
the end, I really don't care about how many people have died or will
die because of their beliefs; nor do I care how many people have been
saved, or will be saved because of their beliefs. It's simply natural
selection, plus the environment benefits from having less people to
pollute the world up. There are much better things for me to invest my
life on.

Play this game! Took me 2 hours and 16 minutes to complete. I feel so smart after.
http://lineage2.plaync.jp/l2fun/flashGame.aspx

Need to setup some sort of work out routine this spring. Right now I've been doing whatever I want or feel like, but it's really difficult to setup a routine that focuses on every muscle.

Hopefully this summer I'll be doing daily cardio and weekly grouse grind.

Need more plates, I hate spending time swapping plates around between barbell and dumbbells. It's just too much of a hassle. Fuck, waste my time you lousy iron. *kick, kick* (barefoot)

Today I went to The Vancouver Aquarium and saw beluga whales. There was this really fat and blubbery one that jiggled, while all the others seemed quite firm. Everyone thought that Ms. Fat Whale was pregnant and it seemed as if a baby tail was peeping out of it's pouch. Kids watched and an old woman said, "something is wrong with that one."

One small factor, which is that Ms. Fat Whale was not a Miss at all but a Mister. Yes, that baby tail was a large penis in heat. They swam and twirled around, the female parried every one of the male's poor attempts. Fat bastard got rejected so many times until there was some sort of contact for a split second and white cloudy liquid got all over. Mission successful? Probably.

I'll never think the same of belugas ever again. So wrong to watch live animal porno show, but so memorable. I mean, how many times do you go there and actually spot that kind of thing?

Mar 10 1974

Second Lt. Hiroo Onoda of the Imperial Japanese Army surrenders
to Philippine authorities. He believed World War II was still underway
and continued a 30 year guerrilla battle with other islanders.
His final capitulation came when his senior officer, Maj. Taniguchi,
ordered his surrender. Upon return to the Japanese homeland, Onoda
was treated as a hero, but had difficulty coping with his "postwar" life.

My mind is a jumbled mess of wires with bad splices. Sometimes when my anxiety goes up, I simply cannot think in a normal fashion. Anything that I plan to do I have to write down onto a list or else it all gets screwed up and I don't know what the hell I'm doing and end up having to hit something to get back on track. Frustrating! It's probably the fruit of having too much energy in conjunction with my self diagnosed ADHD.

Secondly, I am a fucking procrastinator. I should invent some sort of anti-procrastination device and become a millionaire. Either that or some sort of super procrastination device and destroy everyone's lives. Yes...

Manga is probably one thousand times worse of a thing to get addicted to in vast comparison to anime. Anime dilutes a lot of stories by lazily condensing stories into 30 minute time frames. Manga has no breaks in between! Chapter after chapter, volume stacked upon volume there simply is no filler! I've been bombarded by continuous cliff hangers all week. Fucking addicted, my life, my time, all eaten away. 28 out of 32 volumes (that's 282 chapters so far) of Berserk completed within a total of what 10 hours of my life? Hahahaha... shit, I need to spend my time on more practical things like training my body.