"Stupid people do stupid things,

Smart people outsmart each other..."
System Of A Down - D Devil

Alot of homeowners have no idea what they're unloading their cash onto when they renovate their house. It's absolutely ridiculous how many times I see renos mickey moused just because they want to save a bit of money. If you have a really old house, even if its been sectionally renovated the only way to go upon it is to gut the whole thing to the bones. Redo all the insulation and seal the exterior walls. I really can't comprehend what kind of rich parents that can clearly afford to get the extra work done, would want their kids breathing in dust containing unknown substances (aspestos?) and mould. Oh, I know now. Ones that hate their kids. Good job, that'll teach 'em.

Sure, if you're going to reno just one room or such then whatever. But if you're going to do a whole house and leave random rooms somewhat untouched, that's just disgusting. I could never live in such a place, knowing that the whole estate was done half assed.

Last Friday I finished my final exam for level one. Marks will be up in a very long four to six weeks. Why such a long time just to throw some bubble sheets through a machine, you ask?

As concise as I can be, I will tell you that the government is the collaborative spawn of many nasty politician's demonic colons. They keep cutting funds towards education for trade workers; leading up to long waits for apprentices to get into school. After cutting so many corners they ponder for many months, then whine, "Duh, duh. Blah, blah, not enough trade workers! Lets we are must hiring out of the country to keep up with 2010 Olympics construction!"

Now, everyone can easily understand how badly managed education for trades is. Curriculum is somewhat outdated and yet they cease to fix such problems. The tests are made by the government (ITA), not the actual schools or instructors. My test had doubles of the same questions, which shows that they don't even read over their tests after having a computer randomize and print them out.

I've stumbled into a week of uncalculated anxiety. My ITA Construction Electrician Level 1 exam is up on Friday, so I've been trying to study up all that I can before the big day. Considering I'm taking an experimental condensed part-time course, it leads me to believe that I am less prepared than a full-time student would be. Monday to Thursday I work  myself to the point of exhaustion and I'm also taking side-jobs, meaning that I worked a total of 12 hours yesterday. I'm not sure if it's the excessive caffeine or lack of sleep that is giving me the shakes. Wearing the tool belt for 12 hours really kills the leg moustaches... err, muscles.

Nag, nag, nag... When I'm not ranting, boasting, informing, or pondering, I'll usually have absolutely nothing to talk about.

Yesterday evening, we waited over an hour at Moxie's for our meals and over half an hour for dessert. The food was mediocre-horrible and the waiter kept giving us additude. Clearly such service should not only deem no tip, but also a free meal. So, in the end I did still pay with exact change and left one cent planted firmly into my friend's unfinished cake.

I was waiting in the truck for my father. Out of nowhere, a scruffy, grey-bearded "hobo" tapped on the window. My concious told me not to unlock the doors, but I did it anyway. To my great surprise he entered the car and sat in the rear seat and said, "thanks yea fer lettin' me in, not too many people be wantin' to give me a ride." He smiled strangely, as if he was angry yet thankful at the same time. I didn't like his smile and regretted letting him in, so I grabbed my black laquered sword and pressed it against his adams apple and strangled him. I watched the malnourished man struggle as the life teemed out of his ragged body.

Then I woke up in shock and looked at my alarm clock, it was 4:00 AM. It made me wonder, what was the meaning of this dream. I have never had a dream of actually killing someone before. Sure, when angry I may fantasize about it - but such actions have never seeped into my dreams.


Later on today I searched up some keywords on a dream dictionary...

Waiting

To
dream that you are waiting, is indicative of issues of power/control and
feelings of dependence/independence, especially in a relationship.
Consider how you feel in the dream while you were waiting.
Alternatively, it may denote your expectations and anxieties about some
unknown situation or result. You are ready to take action.

Killing

To
dream that you kill someone, indicates that heavy stress may cause you to
lose your temper and self-control. Consider the person you have
killed and ask yourself if you feel any rage towards him or her in your
waking life. You may very well be expressing some anger or hatred toward
this person. Alternatively, you may be trying to kill or put an end to an
aspect of yourself that is represented by the person killed. Identify the
characteristics of this person and ask yourself how you do not want to be
like him or her.

This
dream may also represent a part of you or your life that you wish would
leave you alone and stop creating a nuisance. Killing may represent the
killing off of old parts of yourself and old habits.

A lot of the times when I'm just walking around or sitting on the bus I notice that there are actual people who I automatically loathe to the point in which I wish that I could punch them in the face. Some people just have a magical aura about them that screams, "please punch me in the face; my face is in love with your fists, please let them marry right now!"

I had such a great night of sleep that I want to go venture outside and sprint endlessly, but no it had to rain and I'm not that into running yet to do that. Just for the record, I don't exactly jog; I sprint and run in bursts.

My grandfather, someone who used to be so strong and independant is getting a bit older and it seems like he needs a lot more help from the rest of the family. That just shows that you can be the strongest person in the world  when you're younger, but as soon as you hit a certain age it can all fade away. It's really sad that way and because of that I simply have to push myself to accomplish anything that I want to do physically, as I am in the prime of my youth.  I figure if I give myself a year to get stronger and train my mind, I can take up boxing and etcetera the following year.

To do list October 2, 2006:
-Run at least five times a week.
-"Try" to work out three times a week.
-No more hard liquor, just beer or wine.

I believe if one works out enough they may reach a  point of immortality and become a living god.