I went to metro with Eric and Wendy today, and did a bit of Christmas shopping. I'm way too picky when it comes to getting stuff for gifts. I wish that I saw The Last Samurai today, during the past hour I watched a bunch of trailers and clips off the official site. Absolutely breath-taking photography, and warfare is always entertaining. I'm not the kind to simply want to see a movie, I want to see a movie that is utterly mindblowing. Anyone want to see it with me?

Pfffft, I'm exhausted... and so much to do this weekend... Grrr...

EDIT: Still working on my grad write up... Here's what I have so far, I still gotta fine tune it to perfection, so this is just the bare bones - and yes, alot of the metaphors make absolutely next to no sense at all.

“Templeton, the very place we have all learned to love and cherish. Five years of uninterrupted pain, slaving away every single day with books chained to our ankles. Just when a spark of morale ignites, they increase the weight of the books – and this continued until the very legs of my brain were torn off and eaten.” Thanks to all my friends and foes, for you have made me who I am. Without you I’d be a mindless flesh eating zombie.

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Urggh... I'm exhausted and didn't even get to eat a "real meal" today, just a large array of snacks. Its the weekend, yet I don't feel that releaved. Christmas shopping tomorrow... huhuhu, something in mind. That's all I'll say about that XD Might get a new phone soon, not like it's that big of a deal, but I need it if I'm going fido. Can't wait to drop this ugly peice of Samsung! Te best part is unlimited minutes!

At the feuneral, I recognized many faces, and didn't recognize many aswell... I am so bad with names, it's horrible. I feel so guilty for saying a simple hi to them withinout saying their name. And if anyone else is reading this and noticed that I may say just hi to you, that doesn't mean I don't know your name... I am just talking about those people today who I haven't seen in soo long. Anyways, it was open casket... Catholic ceremony so they prayed alot... Open casket, and people took alot of pictures! Do you think it's odd to take pictures at a feuneral? Of those who attend and some of the open casket? Feunerals are really different in contrast between cultures and such.

Too exhausted to write up to my own expectations... Maybe next day I'll be less messy.

School's a killer, why did no one ever tell me that before I began my career as a student? Run for your lives, while you can! It'll appear to firstly be a friendly face, and then bite you in the ass the second you're off guard. I have so much homework that I must choose the lesser of two evils. To do the more important stuff or the less? Ugh, I hate neglecting to do homework, reminds me of my former self - long, long ago. It's icky, really. Yuck.

Secondly I have to goto my "Grand-Uncle's" feuneral tomorrow at 7 PM. Although we were distant, and not related by blood, and rarely saw one another except for special occassions... All I can say is that I didn't even get to say good bye. I don't remember having a conversation with him ever nor can I remember his face that well in my mind... All I can conclude is to treat everyone to the best of your ability, if you love that person, show it, if you hate that person, uhmm ermm... maybe not show it. Unless you're that open of a person.

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I want more sleep, more self esteem, endless amounts of energy, super-human strength, and the ability to pause time so that I may do my homework and study.

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I can't stop stressin' about school. I really wanna trasfer outta civ, and I'm willing to make sacrifices to get out. If I have to murder a couple of people just to get out, should I? Damn it all to hell, it's all Ferguson's fault. My last chance is Mustapitch and Gallpen... Gotta think of a plan to convince them. It's all that's on my mind, it's so stressful. I can't stop thinkin'. If everything just falls into place the way I want it then I would be so happy.

All I want is to be happy, it seems simple enough to say, but really it's not at all. I can't wait until schools over, then my mind can rest and nirvana will be mine.

I am a victim of laziness... EDIT: yay, work out more now.. i'll get my stamina back up to summer then i'll be able to outrun and outkill... waha.

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Negative energy, I warned you.
Everyone's literally alone in this world, regardless of how many friends one may have, the individual will forever be lost. It's funny how i feel so vulnurable to being crushed by the world's entity as a whole. As time passes by, the clock ticks and ticks, I feel as if I am not becoming an adult; I feel as if I am slowly shrinking, sinking into the depths of the soil. Asking for help is pointless, for we'll all eventually get sucked into the underground. I'm losing my humanity, what deceifers between the forgiving, and unforgivable. Some begin to grow invisible signs on their foreheads which plead for termination, they hide behind their large status, believing that they are superior. For that, they are blinded and must be extinguished; why put your beliefs before others? It is some what right to believe in yourself and what you stand for, but to make others slave away and suffer for it?

Yes, rich in flavour with rhetorical questions. Let me explain... School is damn stressful. I want freedom, to fight for it, or to grin and bear it. It cannot be given, it must be taken. The only person who may liberate myself is me.

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I look so cool.

Bored... so I felt like writing.

Tightly, he grasped his daggers in both hands. It was not an easy task, and for that he jittered, his hands began to shake; not because he was afraid of being caught, but simply because the excitement could no longer be contained. Poison oozed and trickled from the blades; varium veride, an uncommon poison found within the depths of swamps. Roots of specific plants contain this toxin. Commonly used to lower blood pressure, however in excessive amounts it may bring a person's heart to a complete halt within seconds.

Eight guards bearing broad swords and laquered scale mail march past the narrow alley which conseiled him. Disguised as a monk, bearing long ragged tatters with daggers conseiled, he emerged from the darkness...

I've been searching for volunteer work for the last 2 hours... so far the best jobs that I found is being a receptionist at BC sports museum on weekends daytime or stuffing and labling newsletters for some wildlife association at night. If I do the wildlife thing I get free pizza and coffee, except it's at night near gastown during weekdays, damnit I don't wana get mugged. Fucking CAPP hours... it's either this or I get a job, but getting a job is much more difficult... and no i'm never going to work at mcdicks!

I leave all my math work 'till the last moment... This weekend I will do it all before the test.

Today, I tried to transfer out of civ by talking to mr mustapitch, because ms ferguson won't sign my thing. So then he says ok, and he will ask ms ferguson about it, uhh will that help? I hope so... Damn it.

One more day then I'm free...

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This is the last entry of the last day of my life... Okay, not eXactly - Life may begin tomorrow, the very first day of everything that is. It's just a little taste of what's up in the future. The much anticipated LPI is coming up tomorrow! Which is great because by taking it you not only get hit on the head with a really dense TWO HOUR English test designed by UBC goofs; yes, yes, you heard right, that's not all folks! You also lose $43.00 out of your very own wallet! Theives!! ...sadly this test does not affect my "post secondary education" in anyway since I'll be one of those people who venture off to the magical land of Toronto to continue with their studies after graduation, alot of people do anyhoo...

Wow, of all the people that procrastinate, I would have to say that I win the bucket, or trophey, or whatever people who procrastinate alot win!! Why do I always leave every stinkin' unit in math until the test week!? Yes, enough with the rhetorical questions which don't solve anything at all. The answer is I have a strong dislike for math, the taste is bitter. Not because it's difficult, but simply because it's BORING.

HAHAHAHAHA!!!! *Runs outside laughing, while pointing at the sky* --__--

EDIT: Screwed, my vocabulary is quite good. Yet, I haven't quite mastered the skill of tapping it whenever I want.
EDIT: Wahaha!! Cramming is the solution! Thus, I shall increase my vocabulary a thousand fold!

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