August 5, 2003
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God damnit, Okay I know I try not to use God's name in vain - Reguardless if I do believe in him or not, because I'm not quite sure. Anyhoo, I just fucked up my shaw FTP webspace. They changed their TOS to 10 MB account per modem, but I was bypassing it for a long time. Until today when I accessed the email via shaw online page. Somehow it configured my webspace accounts and warped them. Secondly, my FTP list of accounts, servers, and passwords got wiped from my drive earlier. I don't know how, must of had some conflict with Pat's server.
Fuck, I feel like breaking something like one of those transfer vendors at the skytrainstation. This headache comes after working vigorously on some "secret project" on photoshop for two hours. Yeah, don't expect shit 'cause it ain't pro. This be some noob as shit right here. Yah. Next week when Galin's host is up, I'll take advantage of the free space and drop a couple megs of my portfolio (Puaha, free grade 11 homework for all you kiddies) and the rest of my site.
Agh, I wish I was a better friend to everyone... and took better care of myself. I'm a bit too self centered at times to really care if some are in pain, and I sincerely apologize for that. It's just that I feel as if I am incapable of aiding you, I'm not a doctor or you mother... Thus, eliminating it as my duty to care. It's merely voluntary. But, if I really do care - then I suppose that you're lucky to be one of the few, 'grats. If I do really care, I'll put your importance many levels above me. If I don't, I'll put your importance below me.
My Xanga has been boring for the past couple entries, sorry for that. It's just I've been feeling a bit serious lately. Stupid school, stupid no-life... Damnit. I am needy.
EDIT 9:09 PM, REASON: Procrastination.
Damnit, why am I so stupid. Shit! If I only had a flawless memory then everything would be held in place.
Comments (3)
matt matt matt. the point of life is not to live for others. and so that said, sometimes you gotta be selfish.
hey there. thanks for getting me back =). awww, but it seems that your in a bad mood today. the 3rd paragraph kinda scared me! eee. Since we don't know ea. other at all its okay if you put me below you. when your not busy, hopefully we can talk more about the banner. thanks again.
Sorry to hear about your server problems and hopefully your day gets better rather than worse. =)
take care. talk to you soon.
i'm forced to go...I have no choice...It's the only way I can prove myself to my family...Damn chinese people.
Anywho, selfishness and laziness...bad combo..i should know...but i mean really...u gotta be able to take care of yourself before you can take care of others right?
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