BS of the day!

Passionfruit green tea, sweet pearls and seeing a whole bunch of cute faces just made my day worth while. Today was very much tiring, almost as much as yesterday.

Today, I went to school (obviously) did a whole bunch of slack and kinda zoomed out into ADD mode. I was a bit hype in some classes, which is something a bit abnormal. Perhaps its the extended amounts of sleep I’ve been receiving? After a long boring day at school, I leeched a ride off Gavin. I feel kinda bad being a parasite for rides so often, but yeah! I can’t refuse. Then I went to metro to pick up some pinata supplies, walked all over looking for colored tissue and balloons, oh.. and candy! But the fucking suit at Superstore was being a bitch, anyways can’t get mad at people for doing their job. (What a great job? Wear a nice suit and sunglasses while being an asshole all at the same moment!) Just because of my backpack and I didn’t have a dollar for lockers, I asked for change but then he said something confusing. Theeeen, I walked looking for a bus pass vendor – No luck.

Yesterday, after school BS I went to pick up my monitor at the post office. Damn, that thing was heavy! I brought it home and after 4 hours I discovered that this thing was officially broken! So, I had to pack the heavy mother back in its box so my father could return it at FutureShop.ca warehouse or whatever. What a hassle! OMFG, not gonna buy refurbished shit online again.

Now, anyways I’m beat tired and have a busy weekend coming up! Atleast I’m doing something right? If only I had a fuller life where I could do stuff every weekend!~ Well, well. Lets just wait and see what life has in hold for Matthew The Frog. (Inside joke, my frog for biology is named that! He’s butchered and disfigured now, though.) Err… Mr. MKJ! (me)

Take a time to read… and I will thank you, literally.

Music.

Its everywhere, there is no country on earth where you can literally hide from it. This ‘noise’ or music may set the moods for millions of people. For one, music has gotten myself through alot of hardships and has further inspired my essence as an artist. Perhaps one day I shall continue my study within the acoustic guitar; my body and mind is of a low energy level. Because of this flaw, it’s rather difficult to do anything at all! Trance is my genre of the day, it seems to bring a state of complete euphoria to my mind.

I may seem like a negative person, I’ve been told so over the past years of my life. I won’t lie to you, however theres alot more than just negativity to me. I try to stay positive within my own mind, for negativity much rather drowns my mind. While positivity can make things seem much lighter and easier to grasp, if you’re following me. So think positive, even if you know your outcome will be a failure! Yet, one mustn’t forget reallism.

Ahh, I don’t feel so good. The feeling is entire emptiness. So lonely, so very much alone in this world. If there only was someone who could relate…

I AM SO FUCKING SORRY WORLD, I HATE/LOVE YOU ALL.

Life feeds my mental illness… I feel totally stupid, clumsy, and selfish. Its as if I was one to walk around blindly, cain-less. Stumbling across everyone and basically pissing everyone off if I can. I’m soo sorry if you didn’t hear me apologize. Its hard to hear my at times, I’m weak. Its not that I try to be an asshole, even if I am… I don’t really mean to be. This world has weathered my entireness into a useless pile of shit. – Once again, I hope you can take the time to understand how I feel, how I am.

Secondly, I have to, got to, and must stop procrastinating so often! Its growing as a habit on me. Fuck’n, when I get home I just can’t seem to stay ON task on a single thing at a time. I can’t even get motivated, I feel as if this world is totally a waste of time. Prove to me its not? But, I know no one will… — Do I have some sort of flaw? Is it ADD? Its more common for males to have ADD, its either that or I’m not interested in ANYTHING that easily. If your a school subject its rather difficult for you to attain my entire attention. I’m sorry its not your fault your boring, eventhough you may be challenging.

I wish I was smart, yet I’m a philosopher with my own bizarre thoughts and traits. If I were one to leave in Europe during the age of philosophers and alchemists, I would probably be the first on the list to be executioned by law. – Free the public from such infected minds.

Payday has come once more, wow what a nice family. I need to go out and buy some new clothes and hardware now!!

Had a really nice brunch with some of my family, from my mom’s side of the family tree! Ate at Griffin’s @ Hotel Vancouver (Downtown). Yeah, well… Then I played PS2 at my cousin’s's’s's’s… The End.

EDIT @ 7:57 PM

Gray: You poor, depressed child. A rain cloud seems to
follow you everywhere. The worst has always got
to happen doesn’t it? Life is miserable.

What color do you see the world in?
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You are a Silent Dreamer… Some say your a freak, others say your very blunt, but the truth is your just misunderstood. You understand a lot more then you let on, but that doesn’t stop you from letting them think what they want. Who cares? Your you, that’s all thats importaint. – Some quiz, I forgot which.. >.>

EDIT @ 1:59 AM-> April 20
I feel a bit guilty, once again I’ve pissed my dad off. He said I hurt his feelings from being an asshole, or whatever… Somehow I always manage to change my parent’s moods with my own. I remember when my mother was around before she was like “Why do you have to be so miserable?”, my depressing moods are really contagious around family members. However, if you’re not family… Chances are you’re not obligated to infection.

Human? I’m barely human. I possess the cold hearted soul of a machine, trapped within a human body. Machines have endless potential and capabilities, while humans are entirely flawed. Apathy may possibly be considered a flaw, but doesn’t it have some positives to it? Never assume or overlook possible strengths, by doing so one becomes weak. With this knowledge one has the power to be fully rounded.

->>Bah, I really want to take Philosophy 12. But, how on earth would I fit it in? I require as many artistic based courses as possible to strengthen my creativity for future use in digital arts and animation. However, I’ve been working of philosophies since I was 12… And I would like to continue. -.-;;

Good night world, you shall not last forever.

After endless hours of playing Morrowind, I’ve decided to do homework… its fucking 12:26 AM!! Shit, I got a test tommorow too! WTF. I really gotta smarten up… -.-;; Why am I so lazy, my hobbies consist of games and procrastinating.

Back to my imaginary world… If I lived within the dark ages, or some sort of RPG or whatever. I feel that I would make a good theif or assassin. I’m pretty good at sneaking around in RL if i try, except my ankles make a cracking sound once in a while!! >.<

Anyways, back to homework… My new site will be dedicated to past hw assignments. Official release is after school ends. I really wanna sleep, whatever. Laters.

K, today was a complete waste of time. The only reason I attend school on these completely shitty days is because of attendance. Seriously, I learn jack shit on these kinda days. WTF, so ghey. I’d be better off with 4 free blocks? Possibly.

Couple tests and a shitload of homework coming up. (Literally a shitload, no I’m joking thats disgusting.) Well, well… To this day I miss being a lazy, careless brat. Even though that freedom was TRUELY restricted when I was a small child. Being taken care of, being a cute little baby. Ahah, old times are dead. >.> Odd, I was pretty loud when I was small? Ahah.

>>That day that comes once a year is coming up. >.< Well, nothing much. Just a day right? If you don’t know what day it is, then too bad. I don’t advertise this day, I don’t know why… Just not my thing right?

Btw, all you! All of you! Goto Gavin’s radio so we can all lag his computer down and he can’t do jack shit! ( ftp://yingjai.sytes.net/pub/shoutcast.m3u ) Thanks, enjoy. Aha, he’s not korean btw. AND, yet he’s hosting a online radio for krn music.

Well, yooous people take it easy, never forget to relax. Be yourself and don’t be afraid to use your imagination!

-9:00 PM; In pain.

Its 7:49 in the morning, I have to goto school in 20 mins so that I’m late by a minute or so. Ahah, guilt trip is my payment of the day… Emotions may be temporary, yet laziness is eternal. I MIGHT have a test, but I’m not sure. So, I decided to take a gamble.

Damn ayj, gave me Morrowind! This shit could be more addictive then alot of drugs out there. An endless paradox; play games = addicted; don’t play games = play games.

This game is so crazy, you can do anything! Kill anyone steal anything… The joys of seeing chaos being spawned through a virtual world. All in a days work.

PICTURE #1: This is where I would put my 3 monitors if I had 3.

PICTURE #2: (1) Ugly wallet; I seriously hate that thing, (2) Radeon 9000 Pro box; No its not on display, I’m just lazy! (3) 2 day old water, No! I do not drink old shit! (4) Computer’s speakers; I wouldn’t mind getting some new altecs, (5) NEC MultiSync XE17; I’ve been using this huge ugly mother fugger forever, (6) ATI Tv-Tuner’s speakers, (7) My cell; which certain people believe looks like a “toy phone”.

God, I feel useless and extreamly ignorant. I feel lazy and tired. I wanted to learn some new programs today, but I couldn’t install!! Warez are so frustrating!! Arggh!! *slams fist on desk* …and for those of you highrollin bastards who are gonna say BUY!! No, do you know how much Maya 4.5 costs!?! thats like over $2000 USD!!?

…and I feel as if I can’t ask for help, damn guy keeps being an asshole yelling out noob whenever I ask for this shit! I was a fucking gamer for past many years. The only time I considered hacking and programming was when I was 9!! Imagine if I kept up and games didn’t corrupt my very much bright future. Perhaps it kept me out of trouble? -.-;;

Anyhoo, I got a new battery at Radio Shack for my phone. The guy talks so fast then I’m like “What? What, what do you mean? I can’t hear you!?!” — and he had a really ugly accent. Fucken guy, make me feel like an immigrant, I speak english and only english you ugly POS!! Then he offer some gay ass deal thats like: pay $90 and you get replacement during the next 3 years. Gay shit, like I would hold on to a receipt!? I’d most likely loose it, damn marketing ploys. — Anyhoo, I can talk on the phone for couple hours nonstop now!! Yay.